Departing procrastination station

I’ve recently found Wednesday mornings, as well as every other morning, to consist of drinking my coffee in a teacup... and then just about nothing else.

Well, apart from consistent switching between playing Tomb Raider II and a pathetic game on my phone called ‘Matchington Mansions.’ The constant shoving in my face of the game’s advertisements annoyed me so much that I decided to download it.

Since then, I seem to have formed some sort of unhealthy addiction to renovating a mansion simply by matching shapes. It’s not exactly what you’d call true to life, but I confess that I am matching shapes in my sleep and I can’t stop.

#sendhelp

The trouble is, you see, is that I have become despondent to what I should be doing; finding a job.

An abundance of applications have been submitted since I’ve returned from America, but my recent count for how many interview invitations I’ve received currently stands at: 0.

It’s very difficult to push forward when it seems like all your hard work and time put into perfecting cover letters or application questionnaire answers seem to be relatively pointless.

However, I am to procrastinate no more!

I’ve got my ticket, and I’m boarding the train at Procrastination Station.

It’s time to leave this place for good.

It does make me wonder, though, what procrastination is exactly. I’ve always believed that when you have a good understanding of how something works, then you can start to manipulate it in a way that works for you.

If you’ve read my blogs before, you’ll know that I like to do a bit of research from time to time, and today I realised that I know very little about something that has dominated a lot of my time.

Psychologists have found a few connections that cause one to prolong tasks by not doing said task at all. Those connections are:

• Anxiety

• Low sense of self-worth

• Self-defeating mentality

• Lack of self-esteem

• Impulsiveness

• Simply disliking the task

Though I see where these points are somewhat accurate, I would also say there is a vagueness to them. Procrastination does not affect me all the time, and my mentality rarely impedes my progression when there’s things to be done; which brings me to my next point.

Something I didn’t realise is that there are said to be two different types of procrastinators.

Chronic - The word ‘chronic’ has always sounded rather daunting to me, but a procrastinator of this type may have perpetual problems when it comes to completing tasks. Any tasks.

Situational - Situational procrastinators are a bit more picky. They are more likely to find themselves stuck when it comes to doing things they do not particularly like, such as ironing or washing dishes.

cough, not speaking from experience, cough.

There is something about this theory that brings me comfort. I am a situational procrastinator. I love working hard most of the time, and when I feel I am onto something good, there is no stopping me. However, the lack of response I’ve had from applications so far has dulled my motivation, probably because of the connections to myself forming a self-defeating mentality, a low sense of self-worth and simply starting to resent the action itself.

It makes sense.

Something as simple as this psychological breakdown on procrastination seems to put my mind into a different perspective. I know why I’m feeling this way, and I know what I need to do to shimmy my way out of it.

I need to treat finding a job like it is my job. It is my responsibility and it is to be completed urgently, but with care. I will find a way into the industry and career I want to be in just as long as I put fictional mansion renovation on the backburner.

If you’d like to read a little more about procrastination, I referred to Mindfit Hypnosis.

Now it's time to reset my thinking and get on with my ‘job.’

Thanks for your help, once again, blog day.

#deletingMatchingtonMansion

05.June.2019

Wednesday