Reflecting on a matte surface

Good afternoon, Wednesday. I skipped my coffee in a teacup this morning, as the air is hot and humid, so a warm caffeinated beverage was the last thing on my mind.

I’ll be honest with you; when I decided to dedicate myself to a responsibility of publishing weekly blogs, I hadn’t anticipated this feeling of disappointment in myself. It stems from a loss of interest - not in blogging, but in my life.

“Is my life really that boring?”

I internally ask myself, externally raising an eyebrow to meet the ever-developing forehead wrinkles which have become apparent. How comes scraping the barrel for some form of inspiration has become such a habitual hobby of mine in recent weeks?

“Silly goose. Your life isn’t boring.” I reassure myself.

The trouble is that I am uninspired.

I lack structure and stability in my every day, at the present time.

I have absolutely no desire to do the things I usually love to do. Writing, drawing, crafts, video making - you name it, I have abandoned it.

It’s scary. No matter how many times I might go through this phase, each time feels it’s the end of an era.

Maybe I just don’t like these things anymore? Maybe I’m not good enough? Maybe it’s ageing?

Or perhaps they will come back once you’re feeling a little bit better about yourself.

I guess that’s all I have to say this week. Keeping it short ...and slightly sour, I suppose.

But hey, it’s a life update nonetheless and maybe you, whomever be reading right now, can relate to this in one way or another.

Whatever the weather, stay positive and keep and open mind.

26.June.2019

Wednesday